In the Life Of A Sponge

I wrote this, at a time when I was so fed up with being scared, and holding back every thing I am, and presenting something totally drab and safe and vacant. Sucking everything up and letting nothing out. Then I realized, I have every right in the world to meet myself, and  share myself, and Everybody else has every right to take it and do with it what they will.

In The Life of a Sponge

Why has this happened this demon of mine, the bright light I posses just won’t seem to shine. The roots of my timidness, fear and grief run deep within my soul, because I hide my light I don’t shine like a diamond but feel like a lump of coal.

The pain of pretending runs deep within my veins and all it makes me feel is scared and and ashamed.

Why, how, when? Will I be just me the one no one else can ever see?

Year after year I lose a little bit gain a little bit and I know that my destiny is the one I choose to pick.

So why do I go through life on a conveyor belt I can’t stop I can’t think I’m screaming for it to stop but no one seems to hear I cover it with a smile but all I feel is fear.

I’m unsure, undecided why isn’t it clear. Take, take take, and never give back if this keeps going I’ll be ready to crack. Why do I choose to take this lonely road it’s slippery, bumpy, dark and cold.

With no oncoming headlights to say hello, with no street lamps or road maps, where do I go?

What do I want? What do I need? Why do I follow when I was born to lead?

Unanswered questions, invisible tears, wandering eyes and strangling fears.

I’m done with the sleepless nights and constant grief, my arms are wide open ready for relief.

I will step out into the light, I will enjoy the fresh air, and prepare to take flight.

The destiny I choose will not be in vain, no more confusion and no more pain.

I will be Powerful, Defined, Radiant, and Clear and by myself the am ready to steer. The vacant eyed hermit will step out from the cave and from the dusty vocal cords like a lion would roar I am finally ready to be brave.

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~ by Peace Of Empire on April 21, 2009.